Kim in Practice: Healing

By Kim Eng

Many of us want to find a path to healing our bodies and our emotions. This month, Kim teaches us how to observe our own behaviours and practices so that we can learn how to begin the healing process.

Question: I’m a yoga instructor and I’m really into healing. And yet my knees have been really sore over the past two years and I don’t want to accept the idea that I have arthritis. Sometimes, however, I practice bringing healing energy to my knees, either through my own words or through those of healers, and it works. Other times it doesn’t.

Why is this?

Kim’s Response: We cannot be completely healed until we heal that which is causing us pain so the body, whatever it is. This can be the emotional pain-body, or something physical that’s happened in the past: it’s an energy. If we hold onto that energy, that past experience, it gets stored in our bodies. It’s almost like we’re a computer, in that we store everything in our bodies unless we allow that experience to fully work through and pass. The longer that it remains there, it causes physical ailments such as pain, illness, and disease.

Even if we receive a healing – from ourselves or from others – if we don’t change our behaviours, then, even when we are healed in that moment, eventually it will come back to us. It’s similar to choosing the same relationships over and over again: we may be with different people, but we often repeat our patterns in our emotional bodies. If we don’t recognize what it is that is causing us that pain, then it will keep coming back again and again.

So we can do the healing, and we can open up our qi channels, and we can go to healers, but if we don’t know what it is that’s keeping us on that same path, then it’ll just keep returning.

The best way to find the way out of that path is to be able to observe the patterns in yourself. Allow it to organically arise in you: find out which behavior or emotion or past experience is emerging in your own consciousness. Healers may be able to assist, but, until you recognize it yourself, you’ll keep doing the same thing over and over and over again.

Observe what is happening in your body. Recognize your patterns. One day, your body will tell you what you need to know; your insights will come